It seems to be the way that the closer you get to inner peace the more inner resistance you develop. When you think about it, this actually makes logical sense if you look at the human ego as an entity of itself. The ego is simply a filter between you and reality which has been created and fed by a collective societal way of thinking. As you get closer to to freeing yourself from the ego, the tension increases. The ego doesn’t want you to be free because then it wouldn’t exist. All of your latent habits and negativities rise to the surface. This became apparent to me when I was on a meditation retreat in Thailand for 3 weeks (see my travel blog if you are interested). I thought I would simply become more and more relaxed but instead it just got harder and harder. This is particularly apparent when you face something that you have been holding onto, a point of great ego such as past lost, neglect pain or suffering. I think this resistance is fear of loosing something which you have been holding onto for such a long time. It has defined you and your way of life for so long, and now you face life without this identity, you will something become ‘nothing’ again.
I think to overcome the ego you must first understand it, so here are some quotes about the ego:The ultimate aim of the ego is not to see something, but to be something.-Muhammad IqbalIf your ego starts out, ‘I am important, I am big, I am special,’ you’re in for some disappointments when you look around at what we’ve discovered about the universe. No, you’re not big. No, you’re not. You’re small in time and in space. And you have this frail vessel called the human body that’s limited on Earth.-Neil deGrasse Tyson
We must go beyond the constant clamor of ego, beyond the tools of logic and reason, to the still, calm place within us: the realm of the soul.
And perhaps the most simple and greatest of all:
The ego is nothing other than the focus of conscious attention.